Grace appeared

Titus 2:11&12 For the grace of God has been revealed, bringing salvation to all people. And we are instructed to turn from godless living and sinful pleasures. We should live in this evil world with wisdom, righteousness, and devotion to God.
         This shows me that i cannot continue to sin. I cannot continue making the same mistakes because God's grace has appeared and now I must say "no" to ungodliness and to live a self-controlled, upright and godly life. Now that God's grace has appeared to me when I do sin He pulls on me and I have guilt. Because now I don't find worldly pleasures at all pleasing.

Romans 3:23&24 For everyone has sinned; we all fall short of God's glorious standard. Yet God, with undeserved kindness, declares that we are righteous , He did this through Christ Jesus when he freed us from the penalty for our sins.
         Teaches me that only God is perfect. EVERYONE is a sinner (from the beginning) and we all fall short of God's standard. But in verse 24 it tells me God knows this and GIVES me an undeserved kindness and tells me i am righteous because I am free of sin through Christ Jesus.

2 Corinthians 6:1 As God's partners we beg you not to accept this marvelous gift of God's kindness and then ignore it.
         Says to me that if I am with God that to accept this gift in vain is bad and that if I am to love God why should I receive his grace in vain.

    So, I am a sinner. Before grace appeared I fell short of God's glory. Also i was an enemy of God (because God is holy and cannot dwell with evil) yet by NATURE I am deserving of God's wrath. But through the punishment of Christ (grace appearing) I am set free from sin. Now that God's grace has appeared I cannot continue to sin or live like I am of this world. Now, I say "no" to ungodliness and love a self-controlled, upright and godly life. Now I must live a more godly life, and in doing so I am displaying the character of God (beautifying Christ). I don't accept God's grace in vain. I have humbled myself to Him and I have 'let God.' Because as God's partners we should strive to live a more godly life devoted to Him because grace teaches us what is really important.

Verses I studied:
Romans 3:23&24, 6:14
Colossians 1:21, 1:13, 3:8-14
Ephesians 2:3
2 Corinthians 5:21, 6:1, 4:17-18
Galatians 1:4, 2:20

goodnight for a bit

I want to post a blog. I want it to be about my walk with God, what He is teaching me and to glorify Him. 


But I cant do that without His blessing. If I'm to do this then I want it to be all for His glory. 


Lately though, my heart has not been totally for God. A few days ago I was on fire for Him! But then temptation walked in and I began to listen to secular music. 


Secular music is a weakness  guess you could say. That is like the only thing that really affects me. 


I tried finding a balance between my relationship with God and the worldly music. But there is none I soon realized (today actually). And I desperately want to be on fire for Him again. 


So, until I can connect my heart to His once again I will cease my blog postings. Because without that connection with Him who is this for?

dare to love

      Lately, nothing but love has been upon my heart...my soul...and my mind. Not love as in "oh i love coffee" or "oh i just love those new shoes!" More of a love challenge.....from God.

      About a month ago the only song that would stick out to me is like a lion. Which goes: "My God's not dead, he's surely alive and he's living on the inside roaring like a lion!" and that one line stuck with me. Till later that week i was laying in bed when i asked myself: When you think of a lion, what words pop to mind? Fierce, wild, strong, majestic, beautiful, big...etc.  
When you think of love, what words pop to mind? Fierce, wild, strong, beautiful, untamable, powerful, big...etc. 
When you think of God what words pop to mind? Fierce, wild, strong, majestic, beautiful, untamable, powerful, big...etc. 


        Put together God's love is like a lion. Its fierce. Its wild. Its strong. Its majestic. Its beautiful. Its untamable. Its powerful. Its big.
        Like a lion is how he loves. (2 songs put together)
        God's love upon my heart is like a lion. His growl turns into a roar when love is poured out on me.
A lion hunts.
God is hunting after our heart.

        Now fast forward to 2 weeks ago when i was in my car to school. I turned on the radio and What love really means by JJ Heller was playing. And God suddenly pounded on my heart love love love. I listened to the song and God was showing me that no matter who wronged you, no matter who hurt you....no matter what they did to you that HE not only loves me but he still loves them too. That line in the song:
"Who will love me for me? Not for what I have done or what I will become who will love me for me? 'cause nobody has shown me what love, what love really means."
        That line is such a cry to God such a cry that at times even myself needs to understand that when someone is crying out to God like that.....I cant hold a grudge or want revenge on them for what they have done. Because WHO will love them? WHO will love me? God answers that with:
"I will love you for you. Not for what you have done or what you will become. I will love you for you I will give you a love, a love that you never knew."
        God answered that cry with the cross. He answered that cry when Christ's blood was shed.

        Like I said, i was on my way to school when God showed me that no matter who hurt you He has healed that wound and that the people still in this person's life are there because they are showing him love.....and God wants me to love that person too.

       God poured out His love long ago and still does it today. Who am I to say someone doesn't deserve to be loved?

      1 Corinthians 13 is the love chapter. I've been reading it over and over again. God challenged me to love those who aren't loved. To love those who have done wrong or are looked upon with hatred. I want everyone to feel God's warm love. I dare you to this love challenge. To touch someone we normally wouldn't with a love only found in God.

Dance partners

This semestre has been rocky. What started off as a muy bonito relationship con Cristo turned into a giant winding circle around and around. It was never ending. Too the point where I was ready to give it all up. To welcome the chains that would hold me down. I began my dance with sin. Which was slow at first. Because my right hand still held God's as our dance was not over yet. But my left hand gripped sin's as the dance began. Around and around I began. I began to lose myself as my face turned toward sin. My right hand began to feel...empty.

I knew where I was standing was wrong. My dance partner held too tight. Forcing this new dance upon me. Taking me back to where we had left off before. But in my heart I knew it was wrong. My dance partner gripped too hard. It hurt. As the dance went along though, I tried to leave. But by myself I was too weak. I couldn't stop. In pain I let out a cry to God. A cry for help.

They came for me. My dear friends. I felt the pull away from sin. They turned me around. I faced truth. I faced love. I faced a gentle grip. I held out my right hand and God took it once more. I began my dance with God. Not ever wanting to let go.

I know that I will always have temptation. I know that my walk with God will be hard. But I am willing to walk with God through any hardship or any trouble. It's not worth it to just throw away something so beautiful as the love God has given us. Why should God be compared to $100,000? Why should God be compared to a really expensive car? Why should any of that matter above God? I choose to keep dancing with God. To give him my everything. I give him all of me. I'm not throwing away eternal life with Him. Nor am I throwing away His love or grace.

I've learned. I have faith in God.

Buckets

So, I recently made a bucket list (or a list of things I would like to do before I die) and me being a regular coffee drinker (I'm addicted) I put on there that I would like to be able to walk into a coffee shop and they know ecactly what it is I want. My, usual that is. And at my school we have a coffee shop. I do buy a medium white chocolate mocha with no whipped cream everyday. So, I think it's only a matter of time before they realize it. I can't wait!

It was funn making my bucket list. I think it's something everyone should try. Cause now there are things I am definitely focusing on more. It's my top 25. Cause that's all I could cone up with.

1) publish a book
2) attend the world cup (at least once)
3) keep a garden (flowers)
4) backpack across Europe
5) become fluent in 1 or more languages
6) be licensed as a misionary
7) get married
8) be a mother
9) learn to ride horses
10) see wildlife up close
11) bike across Kansas
12) paint every room in my house a different color
13) read the bible Genesis-Revelation in a year
14) be part of a missions team
15) to be known at a cafe that everytime I walk in they know my drink
16) to not be rich with money or earthly things
17) to fall in love
18) everyday show the love of God to others
19) play hockey for fun
20) see Hillsong United live in concert
21) eat a large double cheesburger with large plate of cheesy fries and a sprite.
22) have a closet or something filled with jackets
23) to help in whatever way I can
24) go to a chiefs game
25) give all I can for someone.

There. Now go make Yours :) it'll be worth it. Btw this is in no specific order...just kinda wrote it all down.

A week of things

Well, this is pretty flippin awesome because I am updating from my iPhone WHILE at school on my break!! :)

So I can actually say that my week has been better than Peter Parker getting biten by a spider. Here are my reasons:
1) God has been a big part. Of this week (notthat he isn't any other time) and has made himself known to me again and again (defenitely NOT complaining here) and I loved itso much.
2) my school had this awesome campus kick-off thing they do every semester and I went to it and had an awesome time getting my face drawn, taking pictures with this guy I met that day (he is Australian), seeing more people I knew but didn't realize they went here, and meeting one of my old friends I've known since freshman year!!! It was awesome.
3) I got hired at build a bear!!! :) :)
4) I absolutely love jackets and I got 3 new ones memorial day :) one of which is really soft an comfortable :)
5) I am in love with God. I don't think I could ever say that enough.


Ok so in 2nd Samuel when It said David danced before the Lord. King David. a king. Dancing before the Lord. Because he loved him. He humbled himself before the Lord. Which is really awesome because yesterday while waiting for Spanish to start I myself wanted to do that. Dance before the Lord. I wanted nothing but to be near Him and be surrounded by his presence and love and glory. To follower after that I had a 'God moment' or in other words God made himself known to me again. It wasn't big and grand but it Was lovely to me and beautiful. My favorite moments are with him. When he makes me smile or fills my heart with sudden love.

That is all.

Te gusta school? ....... no, no me gusta.

So graduation was in may....... This was how I felt. :)




So first day of college was August 18th....... The emotion and happiness I felt was intoxicating! I absolutely loved it and couldnt sleep the night before. :)








The third day of college came round........ was fun but the effect wore off as fast as it came :/






And thus I reach my third week........I cant wait till thanksgiving break!!! 
Already I have 2 tests and a quiz this week. I'm just OVERFLOWING with EXCITEMENT!!! .....not really though. 
Good news is though that Chi Alpha will start again. Last wednesday was our first meeting. :)