Te gusta school? ....... no, no me gusta.

So graduation was in may....... This was how I felt. :)




So first day of college was August 18th....... The emotion and happiness I felt was intoxicating! I absolutely loved it and couldnt sleep the night before. :)








The third day of college came round........ was fun but the effect wore off as fast as it came :/






And thus I reach my third week........I cant wait till thanksgiving break!!! 
Already I have 2 tests and a quiz this week. I'm just OVERFLOWING with EXCITEMENT!!! .....not really though. 
Good news is though that Chi Alpha will start again. Last wednesday was our first meeting. :) 

school... school... school. Its right in front of us!!

School starts in 2 days!! wow, seems like this summer just flew by. But it was a fantastic summer! 3 weeks in England, 2 weeks of VBS (different VBS's), furthered my relationship with God, spent a lot of time with my nieces and older sister, got to know a few people in my life even more, spent a good amount of time at my church, went to Wichita a lot, and spent good time with my friends, also went to the lake. Oh i failed to mention that I also got the house to myself for 3 weeks (which was a blast) lol but i am very much glad my grandparents are back now. If i think back on all my past summers, I would definitely say this was the BEST summer I have had :). Now its college time. A new chapter in my life, full of new possibilities, a new start if I may say. That's kinda what it is for everyone. Its a brand new school year! Whether it be elementary, middle, high school or even college. They used to tell me, "Remember, this is a new year, a year to do better, a year to try different things. A year to do BETTER." (get the emphases on the better) lol When I was younger I didn't take school all that serious. It was pretty much a joke to me. Up until I got to high school that is. That's when I buckled down and started to focus.... more. And now, I kinda wish that i had taken school more serious when I was younger. I mean who knows, maybe in high school I could have been in totally different classes! Oh well, I made it though. I graduated and now I'm going to college. Quite exciting actually. So really, make the best of this school year (no matter what grade your in), and also do your best. Try to stay focused. Thats my plan this year :) Good luck!! Have a blast!

A title of its own

 So I haven't been on top of posting blogs everyday (like I told myself I would) and I'd like to apologize for that. These past 8 days have been so busy. I've literally come home and fallen asleep after eating a little food (sometimes i would forget to though) or crash at a friends house (which is always fun although sleep is like a big ZERO). Here is a mixture of what the past week was like:
 1) VBS all week (which was so much fun)
 2) Job hunting (its like no one is hiring)
 3) School (i know school hasn't started yet but I recently bought all my school books which turned into $398.92!!)
 4) Watching the house and the dog (grandparents went on vacation)
 5) Buying a new Mac and ipod touch (the ipod is so amazing i am very fascinated with it)
 6) Also hanging out with friends of course
It was a very eventful week if I might say so myself. But the weird thing is I like having much to do.
Also, speaking of staying at friends house, the past few days I've stayed a few nights at my second house :P (they are Ethiopian which is so amazing, in fact I've learned a few words and a question in Ethiopian) anyway, I absolutely love it there. Specially when we get to eat Ingera. I've recently had the opportunity of trying this food called kitful (which is raw meat and spices). Sounds weird yes, but in fact its very tasty. I greatly enjoyed it and would gladly have it again. Although after two bowls my mouth was on fire. :) So to cool it I enjoyed a nice cup of fabulous tea with their mother (or mom to me). Oh goodness I was SO full after that! The funny thing though is that we were also cooking a bunch more food and she kept insisting I eat. Ha ha I couldn't eat another bite I was so full (but still so happy and ready for a nap). I would also like to point out that every house i walk into food is always upon me. That same night (while still full from all that kitful) I went to pick up another Ethiopian friend. I walked into her house and her mother took me to the kitchen and said eat eat. So I did (luckily it was vegetables and chicken and nothing too filling) and it was very tasty. I absolutely love it at their house. Either house really. If I could live at the house i call my second house i definitely would! Lol it would be really awesome and I might even have loads more time to learn more Ethiopian.

that spark

      So, i know that right now it is August 5th, but to me it is still August 4th. Today was the first day of VBS (Vacation Bible school) at the Church Of Hope. Very exciting! :) Well, I'll skip ahead and pass the day by in a blur. well lets stop.... here, (at the church of hope now). Standing outside are about 6 or 7 of us. Inviting people to come. Pastor Bill and a few others decided to go canvassing again (cause there were like no kids at all) so we went. It was tons of fun! Well, I'll skip ahead again, (i know its probably annoying but I need to) so anyway, we are almost done and we stop at this tiny little store (i dunno what to call it exactly) and there are kids, we can see them running in and out. lol it was funny. but we sat there debating whether or not to skip it and leave or talk to the kids. So pastor Bill tells me to get out of the car and go do my thing. lol (it was funny the way he said it) So i got out and went up to the boy (he probably thought i was crazy when i started talking to him) but he stayed and when i  asked for his parents he said they were inside. So he told his mom i was there. well, when he opened the door a few kids began to make their way over to me. I was probably as curious about them as they were me (or probably not as curious on my part but more of asking myself if they have heard of God before) but I started to talk to them. and the moment I said the word church the little boy and the little girl started jumping up and down yelling "i wanna go to church" over and over again. It was so cute and adorable. well, they came outside with me and i started talking to them more asking about their church life and all. The little girl said they haven't and i asked why and her reply was "I woke up late so we couldn't go". (I was literally thrown back in my mind!) I asked her if she knew any bible stories. She shook her head no. So i sat down on the step (she sat next to me on my right and the little boy was hanging onto the railing and listening) and I began to tell the story of David and Goliath. After that they were both amazed at... God! It was an amazing sight. You should have seen the look on her face. I asked her if she wanted to hear another and she said yes. So i told her of Joseph. And the boy piped up and said he didn't have a bible. (I felt sad for him, it made me wish i had a bible with me to give to him) so i began to tell them more of VBS and church on Sundays/Sunday school. The little girl was amazed that she could hear more stories in Sunday school! :) then their mothers came out and i told them what i told the kids. and the girl's mother was debating on it and about the long walk. But the little girl was jumping and telling her mother she really really wanted to go to church. She looked up at me and with those cute little eyes asked who the Sunday school teacher was. I leaned down and smiled and said I was the Sunday school teacher along with my friend at the church. She smiled so big and lit up and said "YOUR the Sunday school teacher!? I wanna go to Sunday school now!". It was literally amazing. The way God planted a seed in her little heart and put a curiosity for Him there too. He put me in the same place with her to blossom that.... hunger. I thank God that I was able to help her through him. Oh the things God does and the way he does them is indescribable! I absolutely love it though! :) 
      *I want to keep her in my prayers, that spark i her was ignited today just by a short visit, i want God to keep that spark and turn it into a fire for him... a hunger for God alone. I ask you, if you read this, to keep her in your prayers as well. Her name is Hannah. That's all i know about her. But I feel God has a plan for her. and she can do so much with him in her heart. 
        I kinda like that. its actually pretty awesome how, something so simple from God can ignite a spark within us, only to form a curiosity, to deepen with a want, followed by a hunger, a thirst, and to keep a flame (a fire) for God! For his word. The things God does to draw us closer to him. It can even be different from another person. But we are all then connected by a similar desire..... a desire for God. I have a flame within my heart for God and God alone. I also have a hunger, for everything about him, for his word. To know everything about him to be closer to God and when I feel close I want to be even closer! :) I am in love with God! and these God moments that happen to me.... I love them! Even if I don't understand them at first. 

dead batteries.. car crash... and taco bell with God to end my day :)

     So to start this of... yesterday my car decided to throw my day downhill. I walked out of my church to take my friend home, well, when i went to start it... guess what!! My car WOULDN'T start. To add more, my car had just gotten out of the shop like 3 weeks ago. ':/ So we had to jump it. I got it home and put the charger on it. I charged it for 5 hours. Went to night church and came back and took it off. Well, today I was all ready to go to the community college (btw, i am an official student there!! :)) to get my id. i got in to start it and plooh it wont start! Nada! I think i called grandpa like 500 times because i was annoyed. Well, my friend and her mom came over and we went to get a new battery. Dude, her mom is like crazy awesome! She took the battery out and everything! I was amazed!! I wish I could do that. It would be totally awesome if i could learn how to work on cars. Well, back to my story. So anyway, on our way back with the new battery we witnessed a car crash!! This guy came out of nowhere and smashed into this lady's car! it was intense!! The guy's front was all jacked up! Like, the hood was bent up and the side above the tire was smashed and his light was hanging off. The lady's car was dented in on the driver side door. It was so bad her door wouldn't shut all the way. Its so weird, that in a single second something like that could happen. No one really thinks about that when driving down a simple road with a speed limit of...25, max! Makes one stop and think.... perhaps I should be more careful when driving (not that i already am)(i promise i am a careful driver) and more cautious. Well, maybe no one else thinks that. But today I did. As we sat in the taco bell parking lot. Of all places (cause the guy who hit the lady convinced her to move off the scene of the hit and into the taco bell parking lot). It was pretty crazy but it all ended well i guess. 
     Tonight was tons of fun! A group of us from church went down to the inner city to pass out fliers door to door. It is for a VBS (Vacation Bible School) we are putting on at the church down there. There are lots of people who don't speak english (or very good english) so i and my partner were speaking broken spanish to them. Haha :) it was neat though. Lots of people were happy to hear about VBS and what it was. But there were a few who really didn't care and they even told me. One guy (the last house to be knocked on) was actually a christian himself!! It was wonderful talking to him! He didn't have his little boy with him (he was with his mother apparently) but he was more than happy to take a few fliers to give to a family with kids for us! He even asked me, are you christian? I answered yeah I am actually. His eyes lit up, and he took a step back (more like jumped) and smiled so big and pointed at his chest and said ME TOO! I am christian too! It made me smile to see that God was getting around and into the hearts of others :) I love it! I cant wait to see the children coming to learn about Jesus and to have fun just being children and playing around! It will be amazing. 

fear?

In Great Silence

In great silence i hear you calling

whispers in my heart with every beat turn louder!

Still calling... still knocking.

"Dear child why have you left me?"

I hear your whispers, i hear your footsteps.

 In desperation I call out to you,

"My God, my father! I am lost,

I hear you but cant see!"

Take one step, two steps...

Sharp hands claw my wrist, 

Pulled down on torn knees,

Head pulled back I scream out in pain,

"My God, my savior, help me, rescue me, this pain I cant bear!"

Your voice, like thunder in a storm, call's out, "Demons be gone!"

Your arms catch me as I fall.

Your voice, like lilies in a field, whispers, "Do not fear, for I am with you."

             

         So i like to write. I mean God has gifted me with a talent for writing (so I've been told). But to me, its how i speak with God. Some hear him in song and in dreams. But i hear him through writing. Through pen and paper. This poem here, was written last year while i was struggling to know God and to be safe. This is definitely my favorite poem out of all i have written. Mainly because it was a major turning point for my walk with God. It was one of the first times I could actually feel his presence in my heart. I could feel these words wanting to be heard, to be read. God was talking to me through this... gift he had chosen for me.  That last line, "Do not fear, for I am with you." That line is my absolute favorite. Because no matter what we should always know that God is with us! So why fear? IN Psalm 23:4 it says, Even though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death i will fear NO evil, for you (as in God) are with me, your rod and your staff they comfort me. In Psalm 27:1 it says, The Lord is my light and my salvation, whom shall i fear?

           So all in all, God is totally right when he says do not fear. Guys, God is great! God is all powerful he is literally AMAZING!!!! So why fear when we have someone like God on our sides?? He is the God who told Moses to take the Israelites  out of Egypt. It was God who gave David strength to kill Goliath with just one stone. It was God, who in all his love for us, sent his ONLY son (Jesus) to die for our sins. To save you, and to save me. That's something to me. That is more than enough reason for me to not fear. God is great. 

            *So as a little side note, I've many more writings I would like to share with you later on.*